i must say that there is something about a amazingly beautiful day that makes me want to "write"...
i guess that my back porch is my favorite place to write... cause again... sitting in the same spot i have been for my last two blogs.. and i am enjoying this indian summer day immensely..
college. sucks. but i am trekking thru.. i have officially dropped math from my curriculum starting next semester.... and starting the skool of business here... so now i am less lost.. somewhat have a focus again in my studies.. in my life.. but we shall see if the same thing happens to me once i get further into the accounting classes... i hope not... and i must say that i will at least have a minor in math so my 60+ credit hours in that focus will not be a complete waste... that is about it on the college front... other than a short rant about how inconveniently placed fall break is... not only is it sooooooo beyond the need for a scholastic break... but when you return from it... there will be only two more weeks of classes before finals... that, i personally, will have already given up... fall break has only ever really brought me to a point of complete "i dont give a shit"... and then having to return to the same classes that i finally got a break from... sorry folks... i have already cashed out for the semester... at least this year im going into fall break with 1 A, 3 B's and 1 C...
one more bitch about college... this semester... i think that SIUe has officially wasted my time and money... i have a complaint about 4/5 of my teachers... and the 5th teacher... no complaints but the class itself is a waste of my time... a brie on my semester:
ENG309:: Animal Tales: assignments: read a ridiculous amount of stories/poem/essays on animals. then maybe we will have a quiz. Test: compare and contrast two stories from the bible size arsenal of stories we have read and you must quote from... so i have killed 1.5 40$ ink cartridges printing off all these readings.. apparently i am a B-worthy bullshitter to have passed that exam... but this teacher is making it a waste of my time to read.. with no apparent reason... cause the stories are not up for interpretation... just what he thinks... or what he thinks the author thought.. but then there is no incentive for my going to class... or for my reading... sorry english people.. but what a waste of time...
MS251:: statistical Analysis for Business Decisions: this class is not a blow off class at all... it is cut, dry to the point.. so much that if you calculate a bunch of things but screw up a value or your calculations... its all marked off.. no partial credit.. which even in my higher math classes is given... its either right or wrong.. fine.. i can deal... but the homewerk... now here is my problem... i failed a homewerk assignment which was the same as the week prior just with a different type of graph.. sorry we are werking in excel.. first week.. i got a 90%... went in changed bar graphs to line graphs... and got a 30%.. wtf mate? two things make this unfair... one: i was not given back the first assignment til after the second was due... not knowing that he did not like my font... two: when i went in to ask "wtf mate?" he said that he grades on "a general feeling of how well i think you completed the assignment." Each assignment afterwards i was deducted points for things that were not deducted from the previous homewerk.. and that i hadnt changed... so i started bringing in my homewerks to have him check them before i turned in... granted this took me 4 weeks to finally get around to... just for him to point out my mistakes.. but then give me 100%... saying that if he has to "re-grade" it... he will find more mistakes.. what a threat! lesson learned bring it in before its due.. get a 100% despite mistakes... but still... poor kids that dont know that in this class.. which has a failure rate of 40% or maybe that's its passing rate.. dont remember.. yay for a B thus far tho...
ECON111:: Microeconomics: this class is not a pain or anything.. just hard to get myself to go to it... it is the pre-req for ECON112 Macroeconomics which i have already taken and passed with an A, but does that excuse me no.. but this same reasoning has gotten me out of 3 other "gen ed's" according to SIUe...
Math321::Abstract Algebra: this is my final math course... thought i would like the teacher... thought i would like the class... and you know i might... if the teacher could teach the damn class... notes really dont touch anything on the homewerk.. we are left to figure shit out ourselves... half the class is repeating it... and they are failing.. she assigns three assignments to be due say.. thu... then I at least show up with it done... then she postpones the homewerk to be due tue.. cause half the class doesnt have it done... this is the theme of this class... do a bunch of homewerk... and then i wont collect it... screwing over my other classes mostly.. i dont sleep much during the week..
finally CMIS108::Computer Concepts and Applications: this is the biggest load of bullshit i have ever paid 600$ for!!!! Here is a class on Microsoft Office. objective: to learn Word, PowerPoint, and Excel... they advise you dont try to test out of it.. cause the passing rate of the test is 4%. again "wtf mate?" i feel bad cause i no longer go to this class... with in the first month.. i had 80% of the homewerk done.. i used the 75 minutes allotted as a study hall and did the homewerk... last week i finished the last 2 assignments when i showed up thinking we had a test... if i didnt need this class to get into the SOB at SIUe... i would have tried to be part of the 4% that pass that test.. but i guess its wasnt werth the gamble of elongating my college career...
now that my reviews are written for the teacher eval's...
i really dont think i have much more to say... my life is pretty much all skool these days.. that and some awesome tv series... ((which if you have HBO start watching Boardwalk Empire its my sunday highlight)) and thanks to the ladies that live across the street that have the NFL ticket.. i get to watch the bears lose week after week due to the lack of an offensive line.. which is why Boardwalk Empire is my sunday highlight...
a few fun facts:: groovy loves skunks sooooo much that she was one for halloween... mags and i went as the blues brothers.. and won the costume contest... today is absolutely amazing!!!!! my dryer takes way too long to actually dry laundry... my backyard looks god awful due to an infestation of moles... and my computer is going to die so i guess thats my cue to stop boring you...
rb
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Friday, April 9, 2010
vol. 10 no. 04 iss. 09
yet again.. here i sit on my back porch in the same spot as my last blog...
this time with really not much to say... just needed a break from math logic and reasoning... figured.. might see what my fingers can get out of my head..
i have one more month of my first year at university... and i cannot wait for it to be over.. to then prob take summer skool to jump start my new major...
things i have found out recently... i no longer like math... well... i love the arithmetic aspect of math... and that is about it... so after thinking that i had what i wanted to do with the rest of my life set in my head when i moved here... i yet again have found myself really without direction having recently given up on math in sec ed.. so i figure i'd give accounting a try...
also in looking back.. i am kicking myself for having taken 4 years to come back to a college career... math is not like riding a bike.. you dont just remember it when you pick up a pencil... and hell i might even be able to blame the 4 years at ernies for destroying my memory... but i'd just like to blame being out of practice.... but i must also add that maybe math and i were not meant to be life long friends.. who knows if i had moved on like the perfect college student whether or not i would have chosen to give up on it then as well.. no way to tell now..
also in coming back 4 years later... being 25 and in level 200 even 300 classes.. i have joined the "returning to skool" group... the ones that are just older than majority of the class.. though i at least am not an obvious member... but when classmates are planning their 21st birthdays and are discussing how to score a case for the weekend... i just feel old... and when it finally comes out that i am 25... the surprise on people's faces is still a surprise to me... i guess i just look like im 21.. but then i still act 21 from time to time... such is life.. eh?
further... i still feel as though i am suppose to be where i am... the dog and i have settled in southern illinois pretty nicely... and what little feelings of being homesick that i experienced in the fall have almost completely vanished... unfortunately even with some really awesome times had back in aurora... i still have to coerce myself to go home.. the 4 hour drive can be a bit of a drag... then having something.. anything to do in aurora... i cannot just sit at my parents house like i can my own house here... there isnt a bar other than the full moon that i enjoy really going to... and thats only during the week.. not weekends... i must add that the last few times i have been home... i have not only made plans.. sometimes double booking myself.. but having things to do.. having people to see makes the 4 hours trip werth it... and has made me happy to have been home.. sadly... i still have many people whom i have not seen since i moved that i want to... but to make up for that.. i have seen people of which i have not seen in YEARS... hell some pre-Ernies era of my life... and sometimes i feel reluctant to come back to my home here... but when i do finally get in the car and make it to my home... i feel relieved to be here.. and not back there.. confirming my belief that i am meant to be here...
before i make it seem like southern illinois is perfect and im living in a nirvana.. i gotta add that im still too new to have any kind of feelings/history/baggage 25 years in one town can stack up... i really have no complaints about here other than the gigantic bugs... grasshoppers the size of half dollars... spiders too... then not as gross but still wtf... slugs 4-6 inches long... also.. with being so close to anheiser busch.. i would figure beer would be slightly cheaper.. not at all.. woodman's still the best prices.. other than that.. the people down here are quite nice.. we have found a ernies/mike'splace/fullmoon down here that we do enjoy and now kind of now all the bartenders and regulars... and we feel very welcomed by them.. so that is pretty awesome.. yay for people who like to drink as much as we do!!!
so anyways... skool can kinda suck... but lets see what next year brings... moving was a great idea! maybe soon i will love going back to aurora for a visit... and cheers for new faces and old faces!!!!
rb
i also have to admit being down a further south... im surrounded mostly by country... and am starting to really like it and collect it... save me? need suggestions other than country/western to listen to...
this time with really not much to say... just needed a break from math logic and reasoning... figured.. might see what my fingers can get out of my head..
i have one more month of my first year at university... and i cannot wait for it to be over.. to then prob take summer skool to jump start my new major...
things i have found out recently... i no longer like math... well... i love the arithmetic aspect of math... and that is about it... so after thinking that i had what i wanted to do with the rest of my life set in my head when i moved here... i yet again have found myself really without direction having recently given up on math in sec ed.. so i figure i'd give accounting a try...
also in looking back.. i am kicking myself for having taken 4 years to come back to a college career... math is not like riding a bike.. you dont just remember it when you pick up a pencil... and hell i might even be able to blame the 4 years at ernies for destroying my memory... but i'd just like to blame being out of practice.... but i must also add that maybe math and i were not meant to be life long friends.. who knows if i had moved on like the perfect college student whether or not i would have chosen to give up on it then as well.. no way to tell now..
also in coming back 4 years later... being 25 and in level 200 even 300 classes.. i have joined the "returning to skool" group... the ones that are just older than majority of the class.. though i at least am not an obvious member... but when classmates are planning their 21st birthdays and are discussing how to score a case for the weekend... i just feel old... and when it finally comes out that i am 25... the surprise on people's faces is still a surprise to me... i guess i just look like im 21.. but then i still act 21 from time to time... such is life.. eh?
further... i still feel as though i am suppose to be where i am... the dog and i have settled in southern illinois pretty nicely... and what little feelings of being homesick that i experienced in the fall have almost completely vanished... unfortunately even with some really awesome times had back in aurora... i still have to coerce myself to go home.. the 4 hour drive can be a bit of a drag... then having something.. anything to do in aurora... i cannot just sit at my parents house like i can my own house here... there isnt a bar other than the full moon that i enjoy really going to... and thats only during the week.. not weekends... i must add that the last few times i have been home... i have not only made plans.. sometimes double booking myself.. but having things to do.. having people to see makes the 4 hours trip werth it... and has made me happy to have been home.. sadly... i still have many people whom i have not seen since i moved that i want to... but to make up for that.. i have seen people of which i have not seen in YEARS... hell some pre-Ernies era of my life... and sometimes i feel reluctant to come back to my home here... but when i do finally get in the car and make it to my home... i feel relieved to be here.. and not back there.. confirming my belief that i am meant to be here...
before i make it seem like southern illinois is perfect and im living in a nirvana.. i gotta add that im still too new to have any kind of feelings/history/baggage 25 years in one town can stack up... i really have no complaints about here other than the gigantic bugs... grasshoppers the size of half dollars... spiders too... then not as gross but still wtf... slugs 4-6 inches long... also.. with being so close to anheiser busch.. i would figure beer would be slightly cheaper.. not at all.. woodman's still the best prices.. other than that.. the people down here are quite nice.. we have found a ernies/mike'splace/fullmoon down here that we do enjoy and now kind of now all the bartenders and regulars... and we feel very welcomed by them.. so that is pretty awesome.. yay for people who like to drink as much as we do!!!
so anyways... skool can kinda suck... but lets see what next year brings... moving was a great idea! maybe soon i will love going back to aurora for a visit... and cheers for new faces and old faces!!!!
rb
i also have to admit being down a further south... im surrounded mostly by country... and am starting to really like it and collect it... save me? need suggestions other than country/western to listen to...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
vol. 09 no. 10 iss. 24
so 2009 is nearing its end and i feel the need to share some major changes that i have implemented in my life... but where to begin is going to be difficult... i warn this is long.. i will post another one soon so i dont blog a whole novelette...
2009 will be going down as a milestone in my life...
as i have heard it referenced as a quarter-life crisis... i turned 25... a year i really never wanted to see... but yet here it is...guess it really was a crisis for me... 25 and looking at where i wanted to be and what i wanted to do with my life finally after many years of avoiding the "where do you want to be in 5 years.." question i finally got around to answering it... a simple haircut or dye job wouldnt have corrected my dissatisfaction i was experiencing... so i hopped my best friend's train to go back to skool... which i think could be correlated to a 50 yr old getting a face lift or a sports car... many years i have been saying that i wanted to and that i needed to and even with the many that i had encouraging me i held off on those plans..
guess my quarter life crisis was the time that was right for me to box up my work shoes, concert tickets, and my bar tabs... and move to cardinal/ram territory... proudly wearing cubs and bear gear..
to celebrate such a change... i figured what better gateway to my new ways... then a weekend trip to ireland with two of my bestest friends... funny, when destroying the vault of my life--my room--i found a homework assignment from grade skool... that asked 'where would you want to go on vacation'... my response was "ireland with chuck..." apparently jackie and i have been planning such a trip for nearly 15 years.. (that trip... from what i can remember.. will have to be its own blog..)
i must say that turning 25 with jackie and maggie... in a small pub in dublin... with 'sunday bloody sunday' ringing from down the street...( u2 was in dublin for the first time ever)... was no less than perfect... and no i wouldnt have wanted to be at the concert...
moving on...
to continue on my path of change... i must throw a shot out to staples... for the first time in over 4 years... i guess i have a someone that i affectionately call staples.. accident prone and all... he would be my boyfriend... and i must add... i broke the whole 3 mo curse... maybe you dont see this as huge... but it kind of is for me... i guess with recent global climate changes... hell did freeze over some...
another 'may-not-seem-major-but-is-major' event in 2009 was the closing of the old uncle pats.. E McC 's... for many it was just a bar they frequented.. for karaoke or cause they were at one point a good friend of mine and we hung out there all the time... but i must say that it was my bar... it was one of the few...THE FEW... bars that i could walk in alone and have a great time... it become more than just ernie's to me... its where i wanted to be to celebrate.. to forget... to just be...
ernies introduced me to some of my closest friends... it was our bar not just mine... and the memories from that place... dear god... everyone has one.. good or bad... going to that bar changed my life... if i was writing my autobiography... the last 4 years would be its own part named Ernies... as much as we hate it... we loved it...
my love affair with the bar was interupted when i went on thirds... but it was revived after the 6 month stint on thirds... cause when i returned to the nite life in aurora.. it seemed as tho everyone else left the nite life...
reflecting on how much that bar meant to me... it wasnt really that is was a bar... but the regulars and the bartenders there know more about me that i would say most of you (if anyone is reading this) know about me... and i will take full blame for that... but ernies closing was just another nail in the coffin of my life prior to my crisis... another reason to move on.. and leave aurora behind...
i never believed in signs before... that someone/something in the heavens somehow giving you a direction as to where to go/what to do... but i guess this year has been filled with many signs to move on from the life i knew back in aurora... and to be here sitting on my back porch enjoying a gorgeous fall day...
but the signs... like... loosing things that once described me... my thumb ring that i have had since i was 18 and fought over ownership for... my blue hoodie that i stole and wore the hell out of... my room.... loosing these things specifically... i now, at least, dont have a constant reminder for memories associated with them... i think its for the better...
i must add... one, i want subway right now... and two, since i have join the masses with using facebook, i must thank facebook for their great feature called hide... so that i can discontinue certain people's roles in my life by not concerning myself really with them at all... having said certain people continue in my life's story will just poison the (for lack of a better term) "recycled" me... they hold baggage that i do not need nor want in my life anymore... best way to describe it... seeing their pic or their status is like the smell of vodka for me.. makes my stomach hurt and makes me want to vomit... harsh i know... but eh.. so thank you facebook cause myspace and twitter do not allow me to just hide them (i guess im not quite come to terms with just deleting them cause if i ever want to see what is happening with them... i still can...)
conclusion:
this year has forced me to reevaluate my life... come to terms with a lot of bullshit... closed chapters in my life... that i wanted to keep open... but it seems that life just a cycle of ridding oneself of the old and being open to welcome the new... as i did before... i moved on from the life i once knew 4 years ago... i will move on from the past 4 years...
i know this all sounds very negative... but its just a shed of skin... it once was me... and has contributed to whom i am... i can keep going with analogies... i just dont need these people and things in my life anymore...
anyways...
i must say i did well this year... cause along with my talk of going back to skool... i talked plenty of wanting to see ireland by the time i was 25... did well taking two things off my "bucket list" so to speak...
more to come shortly... figured... this was plenty to share now...
and i have to go rip out carpet from my house...
rb.
2009 will be going down as a milestone in my life...
as i have heard it referenced as a quarter-life crisis... i turned 25... a year i really never wanted to see... but yet here it is...guess it really was a crisis for me... 25 and looking at where i wanted to be and what i wanted to do with my life finally after many years of avoiding the "where do you want to be in 5 years.." question i finally got around to answering it... a simple haircut or dye job wouldnt have corrected my dissatisfaction i was experiencing... so i hopped my best friend's train to go back to skool... which i think could be correlated to a 50 yr old getting a face lift or a sports car... many years i have been saying that i wanted to and that i needed to and even with the many that i had encouraging me i held off on those plans..
guess my quarter life crisis was the time that was right for me to box up my work shoes, concert tickets, and my bar tabs... and move to cardinal/ram territory... proudly wearing cubs and bear gear..
to celebrate such a change... i figured what better gateway to my new ways... then a weekend trip to ireland with two of my bestest friends... funny, when destroying the vault of my life--my room--i found a homework assignment from grade skool... that asked 'where would you want to go on vacation'... my response was "ireland with chuck..." apparently jackie and i have been planning such a trip for nearly 15 years.. (that trip... from what i can remember.. will have to be its own blog..)
i must say that turning 25 with jackie and maggie... in a small pub in dublin... with 'sunday bloody sunday' ringing from down the street...( u2 was in dublin for the first time ever)... was no less than perfect... and no i wouldnt have wanted to be at the concert...
moving on...
to continue on my path of change... i must throw a shot out to staples... for the first time in over 4 years... i guess i have a someone that i affectionately call staples.. accident prone and all... he would be my boyfriend... and i must add... i broke the whole 3 mo curse... maybe you dont see this as huge... but it kind of is for me... i guess with recent global climate changes... hell did freeze over some...
another 'may-not-seem-major-but-is-major' event in 2009 was the closing of the old uncle pats.. E McC 's... for many it was just a bar they frequented.. for karaoke or cause they were at one point a good friend of mine and we hung out there all the time... but i must say that it was my bar... it was one of the few...THE FEW... bars that i could walk in alone and have a great time... it become more than just ernie's to me... its where i wanted to be to celebrate.. to forget... to just be...
ernies introduced me to some of my closest friends... it was our bar not just mine... and the memories from that place... dear god... everyone has one.. good or bad... going to that bar changed my life... if i was writing my autobiography... the last 4 years would be its own part named Ernies... as much as we hate it... we loved it...
my love affair with the bar was interupted when i went on thirds... but it was revived after the 6 month stint on thirds... cause when i returned to the nite life in aurora.. it seemed as tho everyone else left the nite life...
reflecting on how much that bar meant to me... it wasnt really that is was a bar... but the regulars and the bartenders there know more about me that i would say most of you (if anyone is reading this) know about me... and i will take full blame for that... but ernies closing was just another nail in the coffin of my life prior to my crisis... another reason to move on.. and leave aurora behind...
i never believed in signs before... that someone/something in the heavens somehow giving you a direction as to where to go/what to do... but i guess this year has been filled with many signs to move on from the life i knew back in aurora... and to be here sitting on my back porch enjoying a gorgeous fall day...
but the signs... like... loosing things that once described me... my thumb ring that i have had since i was 18 and fought over ownership for... my blue hoodie that i stole and wore the hell out of... my room.... loosing these things specifically... i now, at least, dont have a constant reminder for memories associated with them... i think its for the better...
i must add... one, i want subway right now... and two, since i have join the masses with using facebook, i must thank facebook for their great feature called hide... so that i can discontinue certain people's roles in my life by not concerning myself really with them at all... having said certain people continue in my life's story will just poison the (for lack of a better term) "recycled" me... they hold baggage that i do not need nor want in my life anymore... best way to describe it... seeing their pic or their status is like the smell of vodka for me.. makes my stomach hurt and makes me want to vomit... harsh i know... but eh.. so thank you facebook cause myspace and twitter do not allow me to just hide them (i guess im not quite come to terms with just deleting them cause if i ever want to see what is happening with them... i still can...)
conclusion:
this year has forced me to reevaluate my life... come to terms with a lot of bullshit... closed chapters in my life... that i wanted to keep open... but it seems that life just a cycle of ridding oneself of the old and being open to welcome the new... as i did before... i moved on from the life i once knew 4 years ago... i will move on from the past 4 years...
i know this all sounds very negative... but its just a shed of skin... it once was me... and has contributed to whom i am... i can keep going with analogies... i just dont need these people and things in my life anymore...
anyways...
i must say i did well this year... cause along with my talk of going back to skool... i talked plenty of wanting to see ireland by the time i was 25... did well taking two things off my "bucket list" so to speak...
more to come shortly... figured... this was plenty to share now...
and i have to go rip out carpet from my house...
rb.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Vol. 09 No. 1 Iss, 31: tagged again
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.
25. i am currently very hungover
24. the movie jaws made me physically sick cause i thought he ate the dolphins..
23. when young, i was in love with dolphins...
22. i still like dolphins actually
21. the instant coffee that i am currently trying to enjoy is too hott..
20. many have concluded that i am a quite a functioning *drunk...
19. i have always been the live in the present type person.. til now.. future plans made.. wtf?
18. for the longest time.. i read FTW.. as fuck the werld.. til i was told it could ALSO mean..
17. i moved my blog which is pointless to read... to blogspot.. magikpeanut.blogspot.com i think...
16. i think 25 random things is too much randomness for me..
15. i really should be getting ready for werk.. stupid facebook... i blame bauler...
14. if a relationship with me is attempted... you will meet your love right after me.. its been proven.. good luck chuck is my life..
13. my heart is currently in a co-werker's drawer at werk... wrapped in a papertowel...
12. i have been told many a times that i am cold blooded...
11. Big Dave said i would be a lizard if i were to be an animal...
10. soon i will have my picutre taken with Ned Flanders..
9. i hate confrontation
8. i hate compliments
7. i hate getting bought drinks at bars...
6. maggie should never pretend to be me... i get stalkers that way...
5. my hair is turning white
4. for the first time in 8 years i added color to my hair.. love you mattmccain
3. i only have two more of these things to go!!!
2. this was a great thing to do over my morning coffee... thanks BAU-ler
1. i really need to move where the weather suits my cloths...
(To do this, go to “notes” under tabs on your profile page, paste these instructions in the body of the note, type your 25 random things, tag 25 people (in the right hand corner of the app) then click publish.
25. i am currently very hungover
24. the movie jaws made me physically sick cause i thought he ate the dolphins..
23. when young, i was in love with dolphins...
22. i still like dolphins actually
21. the instant coffee that i am currently trying to enjoy is too hott..
20. many have concluded that i am a quite a functioning *drunk...
19. i have always been the live in the present type person.. til now.. future plans made.. wtf?
18. for the longest time.. i read FTW.. as fuck the werld.. til i was told it could ALSO mean..
17. i moved my blog which is pointless to read... to blogspot.. magikpeanut.blogspot.com i think...
16. i think 25 random things is too much randomness for me..
15. i really should be getting ready for werk.. stupid facebook... i blame bauler...
14. if a relationship with me is attempted... you will meet your love right after me.. its been proven.. good luck chuck is my life..
13. my heart is currently in a co-werker's drawer at werk... wrapped in a papertowel...
12. i have been told many a times that i am cold blooded...
11. Big Dave said i would be a lizard if i were to be an animal...
10. soon i will have my picutre taken with Ned Flanders..
9. i hate confrontation
8. i hate compliments
7. i hate getting bought drinks at bars...
6. maggie should never pretend to be me... i get stalkers that way...
5. my hair is turning white
4. for the first time in 8 years i added color to my hair.. love you mattmccain
3. i only have two more of these things to go!!!
2. this was a great thing to do over my morning coffee... thanks BAU-ler
1. i really need to move where the weather suits my cloths...
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Vol. 08 No. 8 Iss. 20
i really should be in bed at the moment...
but i am kind of restless...
its the beginning of my weekend... and I feel as though i should stay up like I usually do and try to make something of my day... see people... do laundry... go shopping... be a person that actually is awake during the day hours...
but werking the lovely fucking hours that I do... i must say that it kind of puts a kink in the daily life that i used to know...
everyone keeps saying... you'll get used to it... and i suppose i have... i manage not to be late... i just gave up more than i ever would in order to have a 40hr paycheck that comes with benefits..
but its more than sunlight that i get neglected from... but then its not just my job that seems to keep those who i consider good friends, and maybe once upon a time they did i, from me...
this might turn into a rant.. i forewarn...
i understand that thru life.. friends really do come and go... but this season of change seems to not be just a transition.. but more forced... coerced.. by others... funny thing is i told you it would happen and you told me it wouldnt... just note.. there still isnt a damn thing or person in this werld that would ever keep me from being your friend... i still consider you one.. that will never change even if we go some time without talking.. even as pissed as I am now or even then.. hell you call me... my issues would melt away... i hold grudges but not well...
recently many things have been really come into light.. the fish scales fell from my eyes... many things about me.. many things about those I surround my self with... such revelations are prob due to the whole sobriety thing... so i guess this thing i call a job... really has taught me more than how precious a weekend truly is...
i have learned who really have been friends to me... those who are still friends.. that many people are truly selfish... really fucking selfish.. i am too.. but i dont believe i would do the things i have seen/experienced... but hell.. such is life... right? what can we do but only move on?
and i shall.. but i might come back to the above topic... since that is really what is keeping me awake... i am losing patience with many people...
anyways.. nothing really new at all... i really just sleep all day... dread werk all night.. and hope that maybe something different will come along... though i might have to look for another job for that to happen... i miss weekends a lot.. A LOT.. i never liked werking weekends.. but always have.. but when you are werking over nights all weekend long... that means I get to do jack shit.. dont really try to do things before werk b.c of the greater dread i would have going into werk.. but i guess that is why i miss many people.. not many people can stay out all night on a week night with me...
sorry thought i would have many things to add other than my bitching about people... but i guess i really dont...
and if you would like to know if you are exempt from this... rant... fill in the blank below...
i have not seen rachelbrown any time recently because of enter person's name here
if you can fill in a name... specifically a name... your child's name(s) excluded... then you have been included...
so if you are up at 630am and would like to do breakfast... let me know...
if you would like to visit the dog park with me... let me know...
if you can afford to come out with me on a wed/thurs night... let me know...
cause that is about all i do..
otherwise... til the next time we cross paths...
bet you wished you didnt take the time this time...
my apologies..
rb
but i am kind of restless...
its the beginning of my weekend... and I feel as though i should stay up like I usually do and try to make something of my day... see people... do laundry... go shopping... be a person that actually is awake during the day hours...
but werking the lovely fucking hours that I do... i must say that it kind of puts a kink in the daily life that i used to know...
everyone keeps saying... you'll get used to it... and i suppose i have... i manage not to be late... i just gave up more than i ever would in order to have a 40hr paycheck that comes with benefits..
but its more than sunlight that i get neglected from... but then its not just my job that seems to keep those who i consider good friends, and maybe once upon a time they did i, from me...
this might turn into a rant.. i forewarn...
i understand that thru life.. friends really do come and go... but this season of change seems to not be just a transition.. but more forced... coerced.. by others... funny thing is i told you it would happen and you told me it wouldnt... just note.. there still isnt a damn thing or person in this werld that would ever keep me from being your friend... i still consider you one.. that will never change even if we go some time without talking.. even as pissed as I am now or even then.. hell you call me... my issues would melt away... i hold grudges but not well...
recently many things have been really come into light.. the fish scales fell from my eyes... many things about me.. many things about those I surround my self with... such revelations are prob due to the whole sobriety thing... so i guess this thing i call a job... really has taught me more than how precious a weekend truly is...
i have learned who really have been friends to me... those who are still friends.. that many people are truly selfish... really fucking selfish.. i am too.. but i dont believe i would do the things i have seen/experienced... but hell.. such is life... right? what can we do but only move on?
and i shall.. but i might come back to the above topic... since that is really what is keeping me awake... i am losing patience with many people...
anyways.. nothing really new at all... i really just sleep all day... dread werk all night.. and hope that maybe something different will come along... though i might have to look for another job for that to happen... i miss weekends a lot.. A LOT.. i never liked werking weekends.. but always have.. but when you are werking over nights all weekend long... that means I get to do jack shit.. dont really try to do things before werk b.c of the greater dread i would have going into werk.. but i guess that is why i miss many people.. not many people can stay out all night on a week night with me...
sorry thought i would have many things to add other than my bitching about people... but i guess i really dont...
and if you would like to know if you are exempt from this... rant... fill in the blank below...
i have not seen rachelbrown any time recently because of enter person's name here
if you can fill in a name... specifically a name... your child's name(s) excluded... then you have been included...
so if you are up at 630am and would like to do breakfast... let me know...
if you would like to visit the dog park with me... let me know...
if you can afford to come out with me on a wed/thurs night... let me know...
cause that is about all i do..
otherwise... til the next time we cross paths...
bet you wished you didnt take the time this time...
my apologies..
rb
Thursday, July 24, 2008
vol. 08 No. 7 Iss. 24
so peoples... here is the scoop on a couple things...
1. cheetos at new werk A5... that is where the vending lady i have cursed in previous blogs move my cheetos to... something that needed to be said...
2. my birthday celebration weekend... its this upcoming weekend... make no plans for sunday or monday night... or at least give me one of the two nights if not both... plans to follow below..
3. so i did finally quit keller... finally the door mat i had become wore too thin... and i kinda got fed up... so then i continued my lovely part time gig at alliedbarton.. that is the name of the place i now work.. and a full time position opened... but over nights 1030p to 630a fri thru tue... giving me wed and thurs night off... which kind of.,.. really... really.. sucks ass... but the job itself is pretty easy as long as the computers are werking... when they dont werk... it really sucks... but im full time... i got my benefits package things today too... that will start september.. but i really hate the fucking hours... really really hate the hours.. weekends are something never to be taking advantage of... as for the rest of what i can say about werk... i will refrain from..
4. since i started this job... my dog has now taken my mother as her owner... i see my dog briefly in the morning when i get home and she actually is inside... then briefly before i go to werk at night... i try to get to the dog park or play with her somewhat.. but when you sleep thru out the day its hard to get things done.. not everything stays open til late nor do places really open real early...
5. also vball has not been happening this summer... which saddens me very much so... i apologize to many for that... but hell it hard to promise being up by like 5 or hell even 8 it seems like... so i do apologize for that... i really do.. but this sunday!!!
6. funny thing is.. just reading about my bday party last year... and seankent was in town... and he is again... and apparently he owes me lunch... mmm...
7. i have much more to say but i cannot come up with those many things...
many/most of you i miss...even the few that are mere acquaintances.. i miss seeing a lot of people... i miss going out and having a good time... hopefully things start changing for me again soon...
this birthday bash thing of mine... this is what i have in the werks...
ok, since most people werk monday til 5.. i will be doing most of the celebrating on sunday...
my house sunday for some fun/food/beverages sunday around 3ish... below is me rambling about it...
around 6ish i am going to lighting the grill and having some foods with some drinks... please do kind of rsvp if you plan on coming... and rsvp with one of the following...
-partying all night with you rb!
-stopping by for some foods and drinks but not all night...
-i will stop by dont think i will eat but drink yesh!
-im dawn...
or
-i will try my damnest to stop by.. but i make no promises and if o do i wont eat or drink..
and before submitting rsvp please raise your right hand and repeat the following:
i promise not to have the cops called to your house...
i promise to not make your front yard a garbage...
i promise not to almost die...
i promise to acknowledge and follow the smoking rules...
i promise not to threaten you or bring someone who will threaten you..
i promise to forfeit keys if told to...
and i promise to cheers you for making it this far...
think those cover most bases... just let me know.. need to figure out how much foods I need... its going to be byob... no underagers can drink.. but are allowed... as are dogs and children... please note this is open invitation... parentals are in invited as is siblings esp if i know them all well....
one thing that will be different from the last 5/6 years... J&L will be here! for those of you who dont know... that would be JamesBrown and Lovely Linda... they will be joining for the cookout portion of the night... nothing really will change just will have a J&L...
and i think this will be the last about the bday...
its not going to be an all nighter party.. .clearly cause its sunday... the party will prob be shut down by request of the elders at the shindig... from there we will hit a bar... dont know what one.. but hell most of you werk monday morning anyways...
and i forgot to add... if you would like to help me out with some side dishes, drinks, or something, please msg/email/txt me and let me know... the help would be appreciated esp if you rsvp with partying all night with you rb!
thank you for your time... sorry kind of long... and pointless as usual!
rb.
1. cheetos at new werk A5... that is where the vending lady i have cursed in previous blogs move my cheetos to... something that needed to be said...
2. my birthday celebration weekend... its this upcoming weekend... make no plans for sunday or monday night... or at least give me one of the two nights if not both... plans to follow below..
3. so i did finally quit keller... finally the door mat i had become wore too thin... and i kinda got fed up... so then i continued my lovely part time gig at alliedbarton.. that is the name of the place i now work.. and a full time position opened... but over nights 1030p to 630a fri thru tue... giving me wed and thurs night off... which kind of.,.. really... really.. sucks ass... but the job itself is pretty easy as long as the computers are werking... when they dont werk... it really sucks... but im full time... i got my benefits package things today too... that will start september.. but i really hate the fucking hours... really really hate the hours.. weekends are something never to be taking advantage of... as for the rest of what i can say about werk... i will refrain from..
4. since i started this job... my dog has now taken my mother as her owner... i see my dog briefly in the morning when i get home and she actually is inside... then briefly before i go to werk at night... i try to get to the dog park or play with her somewhat.. but when you sleep thru out the day its hard to get things done.. not everything stays open til late nor do places really open real early...
5. also vball has not been happening this summer... which saddens me very much so... i apologize to many for that... but hell it hard to promise being up by like 5 or hell even 8 it seems like... so i do apologize for that... i really do.. but this sunday!!!
6. funny thing is.. just reading about my bday party last year... and seankent was in town... and he is again... and apparently he owes me lunch... mmm...
7. i have much more to say but i cannot come up with those many things...
many/most of you i miss...even the few that are mere acquaintances.. i miss seeing a lot of people... i miss going out and having a good time... hopefully things start changing for me again soon...
this birthday bash thing of mine... this is what i have in the werks...
ok, since most people werk monday til 5.. i will be doing most of the celebrating on sunday...
my house sunday for some fun/food/beverages sunday around 3ish... below is me rambling about it...
around 6ish i am going to lighting the grill and having some foods with some drinks... please do kind of rsvp if you plan on coming... and rsvp with one of the following...
-partying all night with you rb!
-stopping by for some foods and drinks but not all night...
-i will stop by dont think i will eat but drink yesh!
-im dawn...
or
-i will try my damnest to stop by.. but i make no promises and if o do i wont eat or drink..
and before submitting rsvp please raise your right hand and repeat the following:
i promise not to have the cops called to your house...
i promise to not make your front yard a garbage...
i promise not to almost die...
i promise to acknowledge and follow the smoking rules...
i promise not to threaten you or bring someone who will threaten you..
i promise to forfeit keys if told to...
and i promise to cheers you for making it this far...
think those cover most bases... just let me know.. need to figure out how much foods I need... its going to be byob... no underagers can drink.. but are allowed... as are dogs and children... please note this is open invitation... parentals are in invited as is siblings esp if i know them all well....
one thing that will be different from the last 5/6 years... J&L will be here! for those of you who dont know... that would be JamesBrown and Lovely Linda... they will be joining for the cookout portion of the night... nothing really will change just will have a J&L...
and i think this will be the last about the bday...
its not going to be an all nighter party.. .clearly cause its sunday... the party will prob be shut down by request of the elders at the shindig... from there we will hit a bar... dont know what one.. but hell most of you werk monday morning anyways...
and i forgot to add... if you would like to help me out with some side dishes, drinks, or something, please msg/email/txt me and let me know... the help would be appreciated esp if you rsvp with partying all night with you rb!
thank you for your time... sorry kind of long... and pointless as usual!
rb.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Vol. 08 No. 4 Iss. 17
so last night got home and passed out at like 1130... though you should try Turf Room... off randall... kind of pricey (get someone to take you! thnx jeremiah!).. but they have crazy drinks there... and $3 FatTire on Tap! But no COORS! just Miller shit products... Jeremiah ordered a pizza... it was fantastic! but the cocktails were like 10.95 each... but it looks nice and pretty cool inside.. I got something called the Program... it was all Rum... Jeremiah got... sh*t... i dont remember... his was just a long island with a different name... they come in funky glasses that are bent and look like they are going to spill... you dont get to keep them either... but for that price I would think that you should have been able to... anyways... the reason for the story... i woke up at like 5... fully rested... fought to sleep for 2 hours... woke up... now you get mumble jumble b/c i can't sleep anymore..
Some more places you should check out... went to Wild Orchard right by the Turf Room with Jackie!!! they are decently priced.. not as well as the Riverview Diner, but still not to shabby... and their fries are WAFFLE FRIES!!! The place is diner style... I tried their pesto chicken panini and it was pretty good... more bread the chicken... but still werth it..
And one more suggestion... I will have to visit my tobacco store today or tomorrow to find out when... but they are opening a cigar lounge!!! THAT MEANS SMOKING INSIDE PEOPLE!!! SMOKING INSIDE!! And not just cigars... it will be a hookah lounge/coffee joint... down fall but completely understandable... just like the Oasis... it will have a $10 minimum... however they cannot serve food due to the new laws... so you will be dropping $10 a night to sit there... I suppose... but hell... the owner kicks ass... and I will let you know for sure when it opens and we shall have a night out/in! They said possibly this weekend or next...
Moving on to ME, to help my money situation, i got me a part time jobby job with Big Dave and the rest of the downer house it seems like too at the place formerly known as Initial.. should learn the name of place i will be werking at... but anyways here is the kicker folks: 9:30pm-1:30am mon thru fri... so this job is not also going to give me spending money again... but it is also going to make me save all my spending money b/c i cant go out, really, all week... greatest part: it still allows me to play some vball!!!
Also to help my money situation I have been picking up dog sitting and baby sitting jobs like crazy it seems... Starting tomorrow... I will be spending 10 days in south elgin... with a samoyed... google it... then note i wear all black to werk... and its shedding season... woo woo... come visit...
For months maggie and i were planning this glorified trip to Denver to see the Cubs at COORS field... it was a great trip to Tennessee... I mean Colorado.. We visited the Jack Daniels Distillery... I mean Coors Brewery... Got some nice bottles... that i havent had much of... mmm.... need to change that... if they aren't gone already... BUt basically... we drove and we drove and we drove.. visited Nashville and Chattanooga... Hotels suck and cost too much money... p.s. the Marriott we stayed at for half the price of the Sheridan was soooooo much nicer... but we did find some nice bars to chill at... and then we saw Ruby Falls... which I am still pissed that we didnt get to go to the second cave.. and stupid lookout mountain.. you can see seven states from look out mountain... cost 30 dollar to see a fucking view... bullshit! so we didnt do that... did meet some of the stupidest star bucks employees... then maggie spilled hers in my car... my car was fine.. her purse not so much... it was absolutely beautiful... esp KY... yeah KY jelly.. Kentucky was gorgeous... Route 41 the best road ever... "Edward T. Breathitt Parkway" (he was elected governor in 1963) was a great stretch of road... straight.. level.. and 75mph... No matter where we went we found Route 41... it took us everywhere... it was good times.. Next time we shall maybe have an agenda... but whatever... it was hella good times...
JamesBrown is home werking... and it bothers me a bit that I dont feel free to walk out and smoke... but i am going to be strong... brb...
there is a kite stuck in a tree in my backyard... sad day for some kid...
LETS GO FLY A KITE!!! totally doing it... who's game?
Also... birds are annoying.. esp the woody the wood pecker who its pecking away at a tree or something... but i cannot find him at all...
Lets see what else... apparently.. according to temp agency.. i am over qualified for most jobs out there and should be making lots more money than I am... woo woo... isnt that great... too bad they can't get me a job either... career builder also is sending me crap for jobs too... and the people contacting me are over an hour away... i think it may be time to look into going back to skool... only if I knew what the hell i want to do with my life...
Also... recently have found out that the five years of training to get my temper down... has been reversed... short fuse all over again... and I love jameson... and have taken back up Jack... and they do not help... at all... PMS and Jameson... ooh... look out! i guess... stay away or keep me away from them or just be on my good side... beer does the body good anyways...
Just got over being sick... nice throat thingy that my doctor couldnt even figure out... so I was put on antibiotics... that I think were counteracted with my drinking... but whatever... throat all better... well the pain is gone... but it was a nice looking... something on my tonsil... then mon tue and wed i think the antibiotics also decided to attack me... they hurted me... but done with them and hopefully wont have to see doc for another year...
And to conclude... the weather is finally changing... barefoot season is just beginning... here comes Cubs games... volleyball... sitting out in someone's back yard with drinks and a fire... ninja spiders stalking me in my bathroom... summer is in the air...
thank you for taking the time to read my random happenings in life...
won't you be my neighbor?
i want to send a shout out to my peeps! you know who you are...
you made me shout out to you... angie?
please join me next time!!
rb
p.s. I also hate the fact the myspace is becoming more like facebook b/c i hate facebook... but i have blocked everyone from getting updates on me... i don't want to know when you changed your interests or your status or you default pic or became friends with someone... i dont care... i do take the time to actually check your profiles when I want to... that is mean... i know... but whatever... so as I believe... do unto others as you would have dun unto you... I have saved you from finding out when I do shit... cause i have no update subscriptions... a kind FYI... thank you. the management..
Some more places you should check out... went to Wild Orchard right by the Turf Room with Jackie!!! they are decently priced.. not as well as the Riverview Diner, but still not to shabby... and their fries are WAFFLE FRIES!!! The place is diner style... I tried their pesto chicken panini and it was pretty good... more bread the chicken... but still werth it..
And one more suggestion... I will have to visit my tobacco store today or tomorrow to find out when... but they are opening a cigar lounge!!! THAT MEANS SMOKING INSIDE PEOPLE!!! SMOKING INSIDE!! And not just cigars... it will be a hookah lounge/coffee joint... down fall but completely understandable... just like the Oasis... it will have a $10 minimum... however they cannot serve food due to the new laws... so you will be dropping $10 a night to sit there... I suppose... but hell... the owner kicks ass... and I will let you know for sure when it opens and we shall have a night out/in! They said possibly this weekend or next...
Moving on to ME, to help my money situation, i got me a part time jobby job with Big Dave and the rest of the downer house it seems like too at the place formerly known as Initial.. should learn the name of place i will be werking at... but anyways here is the kicker folks: 9:30pm-1:30am mon thru fri... so this job is not also going to give me spending money again... but it is also going to make me save all my spending money b/c i cant go out, really, all week... greatest part: it still allows me to play some vball!!!
Also to help my money situation I have been picking up dog sitting and baby sitting jobs like crazy it seems... Starting tomorrow... I will be spending 10 days in south elgin... with a samoyed... google it... then note i wear all black to werk... and its shedding season... woo woo... come visit...
For months maggie and i were planning this glorified trip to Denver to see the Cubs at COORS field... it was a great trip to Tennessee... I mean Colorado.. We visited the Jack Daniels Distillery... I mean Coors Brewery... Got some nice bottles... that i havent had much of... mmm.... need to change that... if they aren't gone already... BUt basically... we drove and we drove and we drove.. visited Nashville and Chattanooga... Hotels suck and cost too much money... p.s. the Marriott we stayed at for half the price of the Sheridan was soooooo much nicer... but we did find some nice bars to chill at... and then we saw Ruby Falls... which I am still pissed that we didnt get to go to the second cave.. and stupid lookout mountain.. you can see seven states from look out mountain... cost 30 dollar to see a fucking view... bullshit! so we didnt do that... did meet some of the stupidest star bucks employees... then maggie spilled hers in my car... my car was fine.. her purse not so much... it was absolutely beautiful... esp KY... yeah KY jelly.. Kentucky was gorgeous... Route 41 the best road ever... "Edward T. Breathitt Parkway" (he was elected governor in 1963) was a great stretch of road... straight.. level.. and 75mph... No matter where we went we found Route 41... it took us everywhere... it was good times.. Next time we shall maybe have an agenda... but whatever... it was hella good times...
JamesBrown is home werking... and it bothers me a bit that I dont feel free to walk out and smoke... but i am going to be strong... brb...
there is a kite stuck in a tree in my backyard... sad day for some kid...
LETS GO FLY A KITE!!! totally doing it... who's game?
Also... birds are annoying.. esp the woody the wood pecker who its pecking away at a tree or something... but i cannot find him at all...
Lets see what else... apparently.. according to temp agency.. i am over qualified for most jobs out there and should be making lots more money than I am... woo woo... isnt that great... too bad they can't get me a job either... career builder also is sending me crap for jobs too... and the people contacting me are over an hour away... i think it may be time to look into going back to skool... only if I knew what the hell i want to do with my life...
Also... recently have found out that the five years of training to get my temper down... has been reversed... short fuse all over again... and I love jameson... and have taken back up Jack... and they do not help... at all... PMS and Jameson... ooh... look out! i guess... stay away or keep me away from them or just be on my good side... beer does the body good anyways...
Just got over being sick... nice throat thingy that my doctor couldnt even figure out... so I was put on antibiotics... that I think were counteracted with my drinking... but whatever... throat all better... well the pain is gone... but it was a nice looking... something on my tonsil... then mon tue and wed i think the antibiotics also decided to attack me... they hurted me... but done with them and hopefully wont have to see doc for another year...
And to conclude... the weather is finally changing... barefoot season is just beginning... here comes Cubs games... volleyball... sitting out in someone's back yard with drinks and a fire... ninja spiders stalking me in my bathroom... summer is in the air...
thank you for taking the time to read my random happenings in life...
won't you be my neighbor?
i want to send a shout out to my peeps! you know who you are...
you made me shout out to you... angie?
please join me next time!!
rb
p.s. I also hate the fact the myspace is becoming more like facebook b/c i hate facebook... but i have blocked everyone from getting updates on me... i don't want to know when you changed your interests or your status or you default pic or became friends with someone... i dont care... i do take the time to actually check your profiles when I want to... that is mean... i know... but whatever... so as I believe... do unto others as you would have dun unto you... I have saved you from finding out when I do shit... cause i have no update subscriptions... a kind FYI... thank you. the management..
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