Vol. 08 No. 8 Iss. 20

i really should be in bed at the moment...
but i am kind of restless...


its the beginning of my weekend... and I feel as though i should stay up like I usually do and try to make something of my day... see people... do laundry... go shopping... be a person that actually is awake during the day hours...

but werking the lovely fucking hours that I do... i must say that it kind of puts a kink in the daily life that i used to know...
everyone keeps saying... you'll get used to it... and i suppose i have... i manage not to be late... i just gave up more than i ever would in order to have a 40hr paycheck that comes with benefits..
but its more than sunlight that i get neglected from... but then its not just my job that seems to keep those who i consider good friends, and maybe once upon a time they did i, from me...

this might turn into a rant.. i forewarn...

i understand that thru life.. friends really do come and go... but this season of change seems to not be just a transition.. but more forced... coerced.. by others... funny thing is i told you it would happen and you told me it wouldnt... just note.. there still isnt a damn thing or person in this werld that would ever keep me from being your friend... i still consider you one.. that will never change even if we go some time without talking.. even as pissed as I am now or even then.. hell you call me... my issues would melt away... i hold grudges but not well...

recently many things have been really come into light.. the fish scales fell from my eyes... many things about me.. many things about those I surround my self with... such revelations are prob due to the whole sobriety thing... so i guess this thing i call a job... really has taught me more than how precious a weekend truly is...
i have learned who really have been friends to me... those who are still friends.. that many people are truly selfish... really fucking selfish.. i am too.. but i dont believe i would do the things i have seen/experienced... but hell.. such is life... right? what can we do but only move on?

and i shall.. but i might come back to the above topic... since that is really what is keeping me awake... i am losing patience with many people...

anyways.. nothing really new at all... i really just sleep all day... dread werk all night.. and hope that maybe something different will come along... though i might have to look for another job for that to happen... i miss weekends a lot.. A LOT.. i never liked werking weekends.. but always have.. but when you are werking over nights all weekend long... that means I get to do jack shit.. dont really try to do things before werk b.c of the greater dread i would have going into werk.. but i guess that is why i miss many people.. not many people can stay out all night on a week night with me...

sorry thought i would have many things to add other than my bitching about people... but i guess i really dont...
and if you would like to know if you are exempt from this... rant... fill in the blank below...

i have not seen rachelbrown any time recently because of enter person's name here

if you can fill in a name... specifically a name... your child's name(s) excluded... then you have been included...

so if you are up at 630am and would like to do breakfast... let me know...
if you would like to visit the dog park with me... let me know...
if you can afford to come out with me on a wed/thurs night... let me know...
cause that is about all i do..

otherwise... til the next time we cross paths...

bet you wished you didnt take the time this time...
my apologies..
rb

vol. 08 No. 7 Iss. 24

so peoples... here is the scoop on a couple things...

1. cheetos at new werk A5... that is where the vending lady i have cursed in previous blogs move my cheetos to... something that needed to be said...

2. my birthday celebration weekend... its this upcoming weekend... make no plans for sunday or monday night... or at least give me one of the two nights if not both... plans to follow below..

3. so i did finally quit keller... finally the door mat i had become wore too thin... and i kinda got fed up... so then i continued my lovely part time gig at alliedbarton.. that is the name of the place i now work.. and a full time position opened... but over nights 1030p to 630a fri thru tue... giving me wed and thurs night off... which kind of.,.. really... really.. sucks ass... but the job itself is pretty easy as long as the computers are werking... when they dont werk... it really sucks... but im full time... i got my benefits package things today too... that will start september.. but i really hate the fucking hours... really really hate the hours.. weekends are something never to be taking advantage of... as for the rest of what i can say about werk... i will refrain from..

4. since i started this job... my dog has now taken my mother as her owner... i see my dog briefly in the morning when i get home and she actually is inside... then briefly before i go to werk at night... i try to get to the dog park or play with her somewhat.. but when you sleep thru out the day its hard to get things done.. not everything stays open til late nor do places really open real early...

5. also vball has not been happening this summer... which saddens me very much so... i apologize to many for that... but hell it hard to promise being up by like 5 or hell even 8 it seems like... so i do apologize for that... i really do.. but this sunday!!!

6. funny thing is.. just reading about my bday party last year... and seankent was in town... and he is again... and apparently he owes me lunch... mmm...

7. i have much more to say but i cannot come up with those many things...


many/most of you i miss...even the few that are mere acquaintances.. i miss seeing a lot of people... i miss going out and having a good time... hopefully things start changing for me again soon...


this birthday bash thing of mine... this is what i have in the werks...
ok, since most people werk monday til 5.. i will be doing most of the celebrating on sunday...

my house sunday for some fun/food/beverages sunday around 3ish... below is me rambling about it...


around 6ish i am going to lighting the grill and having some foods with some drinks... please do kind of rsvp if you plan on coming... and rsvp with one of the following...

-partying all night with you rb!
-stopping by for some foods and drinks but not all night...
-i will stop by dont think i will eat but drink yesh!
-im dawn...
or
-i will try my damnest to stop by.. but i make no promises and if o do i wont eat or drink..


and before submitting rsvp please raise your right hand and repeat the following:
i promise not to have the cops called to your house...
i promise to not make your front yard a garbage...
i promise not to almost die...
i promise to acknowledge and follow the smoking rules...
i promise not to threaten you or bring someone who will threaten you..
i promise to forfeit keys if told to...
and i promise to cheers you for making it this far...


think those cover most bases... just let me know.. need to figure out how much foods I need... its going to be byob... no underagers can drink.. but are allowed... as are dogs and children... please note this is open invitation... parentals are in invited as is siblings esp if i know them all well....
one thing that will be different from the last 5/6 years... J&L will be here! for those of you who dont know... that would be JamesBrown and Lovely Linda... they will be joining for the cookout portion of the night... nothing really will change just will have a J&L...

and i think this will be the last about the bday...
its not going to be an all nighter party.. .clearly cause its sunday... the party will prob be shut down by request of the elders at the shindig... from there we will hit a bar... dont know what one.. but hell most of you werk monday morning anyways...

and i forgot to add... if you would like to help me out with some side dishes, drinks, or something, please msg/email/txt me and let me know... the help would be appreciated esp if you rsvp with partying all night with you rb!


thank you for your time... sorry kind of long... and pointless as usual!

rb.

Vol. 08 No. 4 Iss. 17

so last night got home and passed out at like 1130... though you should try Turf Room... off randall... kind of pricey (get someone to take you! thnx jeremiah!).. but they have crazy drinks there... and $3 FatTire on Tap! But no COORS! just Miller shit products... Jeremiah ordered a pizza... it was fantastic! but the cocktails were like 10.95 each... but it looks nice and pretty cool inside.. I got something called the Program... it was all Rum... Jeremiah got... sh*t... i dont remember... his was just a long island with a different name... they come in funky glasses that are bent and look like they are going to spill... you dont get to keep them either... but for that price I would think that you should have been able to... anyways... the reason for the story... i woke up at like 5... fully rested... fought to sleep for 2 hours... woke up... now you get mumble jumble b/c i can't sleep anymore..

Some more places you should check out... went to Wild Orchard right by the Turf Room with Jackie!!! they are decently priced.. not as well as the Riverview Diner, but still not to shabby... and their fries are WAFFLE FRIES!!! The place is diner style... I tried their pesto chicken panini and it was pretty good... more bread the chicken... but still werth it..

And one more suggestion... I will have to visit my tobacco store today or tomorrow to find out when... but they are opening a cigar lounge!!! THAT MEANS SMOKING INSIDE PEOPLE!!! SMOKING INSIDE!! And not just cigars... it will be a hookah lounge/coffee joint... down fall but completely understandable... just like the Oasis... it will have a $10 minimum... however they cannot serve food due to the new laws... so you will be dropping $10 a night to sit there... I suppose... but hell... the owner kicks ass... and I will let you know for sure when it opens and we shall have a night out/in! They said possibly this weekend or next...

Moving on to ME, to help my money situation, i got me a part time jobby job with Big Dave and the rest of the downer house it seems like too at the place formerly known as Initial.. should learn the name of place i will be werking at... but anyways here is the kicker folks: 9:30pm-1:30am mon thru fri... so this job is not also going to give me spending money again... but it is also going to make me save all my spending money b/c i cant go out, really, all week... greatest part: it still allows me to play some vball!!!

Also to help my money situation I have been picking up dog sitting and baby sitting jobs like crazy it seems... Starting tomorrow... I will be spending 10 days in south elgin... with a samoyed... google it... then note i wear all black to werk... and its shedding season... woo woo... come visit...

For months maggie and i were planning this glorified trip to Denver to see the Cubs at COORS field... it was a great trip to Tennessee... I mean Colorado.. We visited the Jack Daniels Distillery... I mean Coors Brewery... Got some nice bottles... that i havent had much of... mmm.... need to change that... if they aren't gone already... BUt basically... we drove and we drove and we drove.. visited Nashville and Chattanooga... Hotels suck and cost too much money... p.s. the Marriott we stayed at for half the price of the Sheridan was soooooo much nicer... but we did find some nice bars to chill at... and then we saw Ruby Falls... which I am still pissed that we didnt get to go to the second cave.. and stupid lookout mountain.. you can see seven states from look out mountain... cost 30 dollar to see a fucking view... bullshit! so we didnt do that... did meet some of the stupidest star bucks employees... then maggie spilled hers in my car... my car was fine.. her purse not so much... it was absolutely beautiful... esp KY... yeah KY jelly.. Kentucky was gorgeous... Route 41 the best road ever... "Edward T. Breathitt Parkway" (he was elected governor in 1963) was a great stretch of road... straight.. level.. and 75mph... No matter where we went we found Route 41... it took us everywhere... it was good times.. Next time we shall maybe have an agenda... but whatever... it was hella good times...

JamesBrown is home werking... and it bothers me a bit that I dont feel free to walk out and smoke... but i am going to be strong... brb...
there is a kite stuck in a tree in my backyard... sad day for some kid...
LETS GO FLY A KITE!!! totally doing it... who's game?
Also... birds are annoying.. esp the woody the wood pecker who its pecking away at a tree or something... but i cannot find him at all...

Lets see what else... apparently.. according to temp agency.. i am over qualified for most jobs out there and should be making lots more money than I am... woo woo... isnt that great... too bad they can't get me a job either... career builder also is sending me crap for jobs too... and the people contacting me are over an hour away... i think it may be time to look into going back to skool... only if I knew what the hell i want to do with my life...

Also... recently have found out that the five years of training to get my temper down... has been reversed... short fuse all over again... and I love jameson... and have taken back up Jack... and they do not help... at all... PMS and Jameson... ooh... look out! i guess... stay away or keep me away from them or just be on my good side... beer does the body good anyways...

Just got over being sick... nice throat thingy that my doctor couldnt even figure out... so I was put on antibiotics... that I think were counteracted with my drinking... but whatever... throat all better... well the pain is gone... but it was a nice looking... something on my tonsil... then mon tue and wed i think the antibiotics also decided to attack me... they hurted me... but done with them and hopefully wont have to see doc for another year...

And to conclude... the weather is finally changing... barefoot season is just beginning... here comes Cubs games... volleyball... sitting out in someone's back yard with drinks and a fire... ninja spiders stalking me in my bathroom... summer is in the air...

thank you for taking the time to read my random happenings in life...
won't you be my neighbor?
i want to send a shout out to my peeps! you know who you are...
you made me shout out to you... angie?
please join me next time!!
rb


p.s. I also hate the fact the myspace is becoming more like facebook b/c i hate facebook... but i have blocked everyone from getting updates on me... i don't want to know when you changed your interests or your status or you default pic or became friends with someone... i dont care... i do take the time to actually check your profiles when I want to... that is mean... i know... but whatever... so as I believe... do unto others as you would have dun unto you... I have saved you from finding out when I do shit... cause i have no update subscriptions... a kind FYI... thank you. the management..

Vol. 08 No. 3 Iss. 18: Tagged

i have been tagged... and since i love natalie... i will comply with the tagging thing...

"Here’s how to play. Once you’re tagged you have to write a blog with ten random things, facts, habits or goals about yourself. At the end list ten people to be tagged and why you tagged them. Don’t forget to leave them a comment (you’re it!) and tell them to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you so let them know when you posted so they can see your answers."

1. This is just like the rest of my blogs... just random things that i need to get out of my system usually... i will try to come up with this week’s randomness though...
2. i will be going to Denver this weekend with my of my bestest gf’s Mags... we are both broke... but hell we are doing it!!! and all for the love of the cubs and COORS!!!
3. i am currently house sitting for my buddy’s aunt... along with the house came three teenagers... they have been sooo much fun! the middle child reminds me too much of me when I was about his age... scary...
4. after today... i will be broker than usual... damn car is going to cost me 400$... that is just shy of a whole paycheck these days... (find me a job!)
5. i made a limited mix tape of songs that i have obsessed over for one reason or another at some point of my life... and in doing this... i have recently found out that i have a very depressing taste in music.. almost morbid... i think that is the werd i am looking for...
6. by the time i turn 25 i want to have been to ireland.. or at least booked to go... who’s with me?!
7. also for my quarter of a century birthday.. i want a HUGE shindig... concert style... i may need a lot of help for that...
8. last night (st. patty’s day) was absolutely so much fun... it was great sitting with familiar faces at ernies... ones that used to regular that place... and some that dont...
9. i really should be cleaning out my car at this moment... and i am running low on things to say...
10. my next blog, i am hoping will be more in depth about me and the way i am the way i am... been having so many discussions and many people don’t really get me... and generally are surprised when i tell them some stories... i guess that is a goal... meh.

i will be tagging said people below... b/c i think that they need something to do... and also to see if some would actually do it... mmmwhahahahahaha.. luvyas!
jessica, angie, dawn, gail, jenna, danny, zach, littlegrasshopper, natemount, and bauler...

Vol. 08 No. 2 iss. 5

ok.. its been a minute since I have told anyone really about what is goin on in my life...

I wish something good as changed since Vol. 11 No. 26... but nothing really has...

But I will try to fill you in...


First, I have completed 20 Classik Rock Volumes for the DawnLadwig... aka. Punk. and I will give you the next set once I get there...
I really wanted to turn this into me bitching about politics... but I am too tired to try to make sense of that... besides America is going to shit... slowly... oops... my bad..

Moving on... I am officially on the job search for those who know anyone hiring... I need to make next month's bills... and currently its not looking so good for me...

Which then brings me to the biggest thing coming along in my life... is a Mr. Tom Petty... on the floor... at the united center... I am so stoked for this concert... I have seen him like 6 times... and this will be the closest I have been to someone I almost consider a god... holy shit... so excited... sorry to those who aren't coming with me... I wish I could help you out... buy tickets! there are plenty of you!!! and he is more than werth it!!! he is also the reason I am broke. that and going from full time to part time at werk... *censored*

the smoking ban.. fucking sucks ass... fuck IL...


and I am going for a smoke with Angie on the phone... to plan on our kick ass road trip this weekend... woo woo...

brb...

ok.. so I am going to Quincy this saturday for nothing but shits and giggles...
also.. WI is the best place ever for shits and giggles.. this past saturday ruled!!!

yeah WI...



I starting knitting and in turn got Dawn, Jackie, and Jenna knitting... I am an old maid... that shares her past times...
also I am a dork... proven over and over again to many people...



I love my dog... she rules... the bestest friend in the whole wide werld...


I hate white out with the sponge applicator... buying a 24 case of beer is far more satisfying than going out every night...


and I had my first panic attack since RE/MAX today... no good.. no good at all...

I love potatoes... either scalloped with cheese or twice baked oohh... love potatoes...
i love gail! for listening to my babble...

on three way with gail and dawn.. woo woo.. big pimpin'...

anyhoo... Martini ROOM... is not the same as my second home the Martini Bar... but it werks... its about the same... but hell... it no longer has Charolette's everywhere...


I need a new hobby p.s.




and I think this is about all I am good for, for now...


summation:
I hate the winter...
I miss many...
and...
"maybe somewhere down the road a ways...
you will think of me and wonder where I am these days...
maybe somewhere down the road when some one plays...
purple haze..."

best wishes..
rbg


p.s. the last set of classik rock volumes which are not finished:
vol. XII : Carole King Tapestry and Jefferson Airplane Surrealistic Pillow
vol. XIII : Janis Joplin
vol. XIV : Grateful Dead American Beauty and Working Man's Dead
vol. XV.i : CSNY
vol. XV.ii : CSN and some times Y... and their solo careers
vol. XVI : Creedence Clearwater Revival
vol. XVII : The Band
vol. XVIII : Loggins & Messina and Arlo Guthrie
vol. XIX : ______ Brothers (allman, everly, righteous, chambers, and doobie)
vol. XX : When We Were on the Eve of Destruction (comp by yours truly)

more to come!





and in final conclusion... I love a Dawn "Punk" Ladwig... a Betty Lynn... an Angie?... and a Schmags!!! ohh can chris bauler for making a special trip to give me a hug... thanks a bunch for everything today!!!
and Dawn wants everyone to remember Maggie's roast this past year... cause that was fucking hilarious!!!! fuck yeah...